The Rescuers

Okay, I haven't watched The Rescuers in a few years, but I was thinking about it today as I was playing through one of the songs in my amazing Disney song book.

What little orphan girl doesn't spend her days dreaming of the wonderful, warm, kind, beautiful people who will adopt her? And then poor little Penny (the little girl in The Rescuers, if you didn't remember) gets kidnapped by Medusa and Snoops! Instead of a brother and sister she has two crocodiles to watch after her. Instead of a Mom and Dad who love her, she has two slave masters who just want her to squeeze down that little hole to get the big diamond.

So then she dreams of being rescued. And she does something to help herself. She sends out little bottles with notes in them, in the hopes that someone will find them and then her. Not only that she prays. She prays and prays for help and for someone to save her.

Luckily, I've never been an orphan, and I've never been kidnapped and had crocodiles be my guard. But I've had people rescue me before and I'm sure I'll have people rescue me in the future. And hopefully I've rescued at least one other person. We all need help. And we all need to help ourselves. And we all need help from God. Hopefully he'll send us some angels--whether in the form of two mice and a dragonfly, or a friend, or parents, or a stranger--and they will rescue us. And just maybe Heavenly Father will let us be someone else's angel and have us rescue them from their demons.

The song that inspired this is Someone's Waiting For You. It touches a special place in my heart and never fails to make me cry. It helps me remember that someone's waiting for me. And hopefully someone tall, dark, and very handsome (rich wouldn't hurt either) is waiting for me. Maybe even just as impatiently as I'm waiting for him. Someday--hopefully soon!--the waiting will be over. :) For now, I'll just try to be a Rescuer. Doing whatever small amount I can do.

30DC Day 30

A picture of you today and 20 goals:

Okay, I cheated, this wasn't taken today. This was taken 2 months ago. But I figure it's close enough. I have work in an hour so my hair's all back and I'm just not photo ready.

Hmmm...20 goals...That's a lot... Well, here we go!

1. Get up and put my laundry in the dryer...
2. Pin the dress I'm wearing for an event tomorrow :)
3. Grow a bust size for the event tomorrow (too bad that's pretty much impossible)
4. Eat lunch before I go to work.
5. Get home from work in time to see Chelsea Kane dance on Dancing With the Stars!
6. Have a good attitude at work. (That's hard sometimes)
7. File and clip my nails.
8. Get lip liner tomorrow (and a nail file).
9. Finish writing the chapter of a story I'm working on.
10. Make an eye doctor and dentist appointment.
11. Beat my high score at Bejeweled (310,000!!)
12. Finish rereading the Harry Potter series.
13. Write meaningful blog posts at least once a week.
14. Practice piano at least every other day.
15. Organize and purge my bedroom. (I have WAY too much crap!)
16. Scrapbook my stuff from my time at Disneyland.
17. Figure out what to do for Kavyn for her birthday which is in 51 days!!! AH!
18. Attend a Disney audition
19. Go back to school.
20. Finish this blog post.

Hey I accomplished 2 of those! The first and the last!

Consider my 30 Day Challenge complete!!!!

30DC Day 29

In the past month how have you changed?

Goodness gracious. Didn't we just go over this?! I've think that I've changed immensely. Become more understanding and less hot-headed. I've sweetened and softened. But at the same time I've become bolder and braver with my words and feelings. Also I'm more forgiving.

Along with all these deep and meaningful things my hair has changed colors and is now all one color. Before it was black on the bottom, brown towards the top and dishwater blonde at the roots. Now it's all dark brown. And that makes me very happy. And I started trying purple eyeshadow and eyeliner and lipstick and just lots of makeup. And it's so fun!

30DC Day 28

A picture of you last year and now and how things have changed since then:

Last year

This year

And oh dear, oh dear. What hasn't changed since last year?

Well, my name and that's about it.

Everything in my life has changed in the last year it seems. Especially me.

And that's a good thing I think.

I've calmed down in a lot of ways (As I tried to illustrate with the photos)

I've become much more adult.

I've become way more obsessed with makeup.

My relationships have been tested and strengthened.

I am no longer a teenager like last year.

Anyway many, many things have changed. And hopefully all for the better. I'm not the best judge of that though.

30DC

Okay, I have three left!! Almost done! But they're all like: take a picture of yourself today and stuff...and it's really late and I just got off work a little while ago, you don't want to see a picture of me right now. So I solemnly swear to do them in the next few days okay? :) (I really hope at least someone thought "I am up to no good" after I said "I solemnly swear".--I'm rereading the Harry Potter series if you didn't notice.) It will sure be weird to not have a post coming out every day. But hopefully I'll have enough purposeful ideas for every week.

30DC Day 27

Why are you doing this 30 Day Challenge:

First I did it because Rae did and said I should. And reading through the daily write-ups I was scared of writing some of those things and didn't know if I could. So it was brave to do this, which fits in quite well with my blog theme.

30DC Day 26

Places you want to visit before you die:

The Eiffel Tower

The Paris Opera House

(The home of Erik--the Phantom of the Opera)

The Hall of Mirrors at Versailles

(Where Marie Antoinette was married to King Louis XVI)

Disneyland Paris

Disneyland Hong Kong

I want to go to England.

Also, I want to go to Italy

I pretty much just want to go everywhere. Just these places especially. I want to take 2-3 months off of my life and go to every Disney park for a week or 2. That would be awesome. And then more time off to see Europe.

30DC Day 25

What I would find in your bag:

My wallet

Lipgloss

Carmex

Doodle Paper

Daisy Duck pen

Donald Duck mirror (Thanks again Kav!! She gave it to me for my birthday!!!)

Keys (on a Jonas Brothers lanyard!)

Team Jonas Ray Ban sunglasses! (I LOVE THEM!!)

My iPod

Random trash

Various food items like nuts just in case my blood sugar dips

30DC Day 24

Share a story about your past you're ashamed of:

Once I hit my sister over the head with a heavy men's hard-plastic flip-flop. Hard. I'm sorry Em. :(

30DC Day 23

What is something you crave:

Comfort. I constantly crave comfort and love. I crave big squishing hugs and cuddles. Maybe that's why I love kids, they're so free with their hugs and with their loves.

Also, I crave steak frequently. That probably means I need more iron and protein in my diet. Or that I just like steak.

30DC Day 22

What makes you different from everyone else:

This question I'm really excited about! Here we go!

I'm full of contradictions. (I hate bananas and love banana bread. I love kids but don't wanna be a teacher or daycare worker. I think quite a bit, but so quickly it seems I'm not thinking. There are so many more you'd just have to get to know me to get to know them.)

I love a lot of things, and with all my heart. Truly I do.

I'm satisfied with having just a few very close friends. I don't need a lot of friends. Even just one person to understand and love me is more than enough.

I dream ginormously. I don't think enough people do. Or maybe they don't admit it like me.

I write a blog about improving myself. (Maybe that's not so individual but I thought maybe.)

When I watch Phantom of the Opera or Enchanted or various princess movies alone I put on my petticoat (yes, I own 2), and then one of 2 of my big ball gowns and dance around my house singing along. :)

30DC Day 21

Share a picture of your day:

I have a cold (I'm actually nearly better today!!!!!!) so I've been sitting on the couch with that box of tissues, which I've used SO many of. I've filled a garbage bag with tissues in the past two or three days, I swear.

Technically today (from about 12:30-1:30 am) I was researching reasons why it's okay that Rae's moving. That picture right there is the number one reason why it's okay. It's the home of Denise and Kevin Sr. Jonas. Can you guess what me and Rae will be doing when I go to visit her? Well if you can't, you obviously don't know me very well.

(Maybe I'll bring them a birdhouse!! HAHA!...If you've seen Camp Rock and paid attention to Kevin's character you'll understand!)

30DC Day 20

If you had 3 wishes, what would they be:

"If you tell a wish it won't come true." ;) Thank you Cinderella for that brilliant excuse to not tell your innermost wishes.

Poetry

I don't know if any of you know this, but I am a published poet. One of my pieces was published in my high school's literary magazine. Maybe one day I'll post it. But today I've been thinking about this poem that I'll share with you. It's been a rough day. I found out that Rae is moving to Texas. By August 1st. I'm very upset. But there is a positive!! She will live only about a 20 minute drive from Fort Worth which is where the majority of the Jonas family lives. (Maybe Reed will go to school with Frankie Jonas!!!! Okay...that's highly unlikely, but I can dream right?! The answer is YES I CAN!! And I WILL as big as I please.) But I don't want her to leave me. I love Rachel. She's the older sister I've never had, and one of my best friends. And all day I kept thinking the opening lines of this poem for her, but couldn't remember the rest. Miraculously it was in the first folder of things I've written that I looked at. (There are several. And hardly any of the work is worth showing anyone, honestly.)

Without further ado, my poem entitled Fear Him?

They say to fear Him,

to fear our Lord.

We're told He'd smite us

for all our sins.

But I cannot fear Him

He paid for my sins.

He helps me through days

I just can't face alone.

I feel the power of His love

from the glowing sunshine up above,

the beautiful flowers down below,

the warm soft grass between my toes.

How can I fear Him?

He's saved me from death,

every day he gives me breath.

How can I fear Him?

He suffered for me in a grove of tress

and died for me at Calgary.

How can I fear Him?

He felt my pain while here on earth

so I could have a second birth.

How can I fear Him?
I feel the power of His love

from the glowing sunshine above

the beautiful flowers down below

and the warm, soft grass between my toes.

How can I fear Him like they say?

I only love Him stronger every day.

(I wrote this one day during church as someone was giving a talk, that I don't remember what it was about. And I remember my mom showing it to a lady in my ward--who was later my English 1010 teacher--who complimented me and it's stuck with me. I don't know why I've been thinking this today, but I have. And I felt like sharing. I hope you enjoyed, or at least it made you think. P.S. I don't know how copyrights work, but please respect that this is my work, my words. It takes a great deal for me to share my words as poetry is my soul on paper. Thank you.)

Rae I love you. I know Heavenly Father and Christ love you. They're watching over you and your family. Everything will go well in Texas. Somehow, we'll both be okay. :)

30DC Day 19

Nicknames you have and how or why you got them:

I'm not one that gets nicknames easily. I only really have 4 I've ever been called.

C or C-C: From the first initial/syllable of my name.

Goo: From my childhood. Embarrassing I know.

Beers: My last name. While working at a pizza place there were 2 Ciera's so I was called by my last name for clarification.

Flea: Kavyn calls me this sometimes because I'm so small I'm a Flea. It's kinda odd and endearing and cute and I love it. :)

Light

Light is something we see every day. Something we need to be able to see at all. But how much do we really think about light? I didn't hardly at all until I went to Anaheim. There I fell in love with light. I fell in love with the way sunrise came slowly, softly, showing everything in delicate pastels, and gradually allowing colors to come to their full potential. I fell in love with the daytime light, with the way everything was shown by the hazy sun subtly, gently, not brashly or harshly, just simply. And mostly, I fell in love with sunset. Sunsets there are pure magic. There's always a few clouds that turn the brightest pinks and oranges and then the softest most gorgeous dusty rose color just as the sun sinks. And the sunsets make everything glow. Especially the castle though. The castle catches all the light it's given and reflects it so perfectly. It's hard to even describe, so luckily I captured it one day with my camera.

Isn't it just perfect? The way the light softens and bounces of the castle?

It's like the soft perfect ending of a fairy tale.

Somehow Disney has paid off the sun to make their park look perfect constantly. But especially at sunset I think so then you remember the perfection and glow of happiness you saw during the day. Just look how beautiful the Matterhorn and Tea Cups look! This day was gorgeous and simply breathtaking. They are bittersweet to look at and just make me want to go back so bad I can barely stand staying home one more second.

That may be my favorite picture I took at Disneyland.

Except for the lady's head in the corner.... :/

I was driving home a week or two ago and the light was just like the glowing perfect Anaheim sunsets. It was brilliant and beautiful and I cried I was so moved. (I cry easy if you never noticed.) It made me want to run, fly, skip, drive, ride, anything to get back to Disneyland as quickly as possible to see the beauty again in the place that in belongs in my memory.

I hope the light inside me and the light of my life is much like the light of Anaheim. Soft, glowing, forgiving of faults, yet illuminating of truth, and ending in brilliant beauty and perfect peace.

30DC Day 18

Plans/Dreams/Goals you have:

Plans:

Get back to Disneyland sometime in May. If that doesn't work out,then this fall. (I refuse to go when it's busy.)

Figure out my next step.

Dreams:

I'd love to go on America's Next Top Model.

I want to be famous. Not just to be famous, but to help other people and be an inspiration and an example. It's kinda dumb, but it's true.

Goals:

Get out of debt. Car debt, credit card, etc.

30DC Day 14

A picture of something you ate:

I forgot to take a picture and forgot to post this day.

I think I had a tuna fish sandwich with Dill Pickle hunks in it.

But I'm not sure. But that's something I would eat.

Yup.

30DC Day 17

Someone you would like to switch lives with for one day and why:

Oh there are SO many people I'd like to switch lives with for one day and for so many reasons. But one comes to mind the quickest.

Danielle Deleasa.

She's married to Kevin Jonas in reality and it would be interesting to see what that would be like. But I'd like to still have my body. I'm not very fond of her looks.

30DC Day 16

Something you could live without:

That's a funny question to ask...but I think I could live without....Oh I don't know...I could live without bananas. In fact I do. :)

30DC Day 15

Put your iPod on shuffle and share the first 10 songs that play:

1) Shattered Backstreet Boys (Yes I still listen to them. Frequently in fact.)

2) Wanna Be Startin' Somethin' Michael Jackson

3) The Call Backstreet Boys (See?)

4) Walk In The Sun McFly (I listened to this song 40 times in a row one night. I love this song)

5) Forever & Always Taylor Swift

6) The Last Song McFly

7) All I Ask of You Phantom of the Opera (Secretly I want to be proposed to with this song)

8) Sunburn Owl City

9) Black Keys Jonas Brothers (This song makes me cry. I'm so much like the girl in the song and it just hits home)

10) Enchanted Taylor Swift (One day I will be enchanted to meet someone and hopefully he'll be enchanted to meet me. I LOVE this song. Especially the "Please don't be in love with someone else. Please don't have someone waiting on you." That part pulls my heartstrings.)

My iPod's really good at shuffling. I promise I didn't cheat :)