30DC Day 20

If you had 3 wishes, what would they be:

"If you tell a wish it won't come true." ;) Thank you Cinderella for that brilliant excuse to not tell your innermost wishes.

Poetry

I don't know if any of you know this, but I am a published poet. One of my pieces was published in my high school's literary magazine. Maybe one day I'll post it. But today I've been thinking about this poem that I'll share with you. It's been a rough day. I found out that Rae is moving to Texas. By August 1st. I'm very upset. But there is a positive!! She will live only about a 20 minute drive from Fort Worth which is where the majority of the Jonas family lives. (Maybe Reed will go to school with Frankie Jonas!!!! Okay...that's highly unlikely, but I can dream right?! The answer is YES I CAN!! And I WILL as big as I please.) But I don't want her to leave me. I love Rachel. She's the older sister I've never had, and one of my best friends. And all day I kept thinking the opening lines of this poem for her, but couldn't remember the rest. Miraculously it was in the first folder of things I've written that I looked at. (There are several. And hardly any of the work is worth showing anyone, honestly.)

Without further ado, my poem entitled Fear Him?

They say to fear Him,

to fear our Lord.

We're told He'd smite us

for all our sins.

But I cannot fear Him

He paid for my sins.

He helps me through days

I just can't face alone.

I feel the power of His love

from the glowing sunshine up above,

the beautiful flowers down below,

the warm soft grass between my toes.

How can I fear Him?

He's saved me from death,

every day he gives me breath.

How can I fear Him?

He suffered for me in a grove of tress

and died for me at Calgary.

How can I fear Him?

He felt my pain while here on earth

so I could have a second birth.

How can I fear Him?
I feel the power of His love

from the glowing sunshine above

the beautiful flowers down below

and the warm, soft grass between my toes.

How can I fear Him like they say?

I only love Him stronger every day.

(I wrote this one day during church as someone was giving a talk, that I don't remember what it was about. And I remember my mom showing it to a lady in my ward--who was later my English 1010 teacher--who complimented me and it's stuck with me. I don't know why I've been thinking this today, but I have. And I felt like sharing. I hope you enjoyed, or at least it made you think. P.S. I don't know how copyrights work, but please respect that this is my work, my words. It takes a great deal for me to share my words as poetry is my soul on paper. Thank you.)

Rae I love you. I know Heavenly Father and Christ love you. They're watching over you and your family. Everything will go well in Texas. Somehow, we'll both be okay. :)

30DC Day 19

Nicknames you have and how or why you got them:

I'm not one that gets nicknames easily. I only really have 4 I've ever been called.

C or C-C: From the first initial/syllable of my name.

Goo: From my childhood. Embarrassing I know.

Beers: My last name. While working at a pizza place there were 2 Ciera's so I was called by my last name for clarification.

Flea: Kavyn calls me this sometimes because I'm so small I'm a Flea. It's kinda odd and endearing and cute and I love it. :)

Light

Light is something we see every day. Something we need to be able to see at all. But how much do we really think about light? I didn't hardly at all until I went to Anaheim. There I fell in love with light. I fell in love with the way sunrise came slowly, softly, showing everything in delicate pastels, and gradually allowing colors to come to their full potential. I fell in love with the daytime light, with the way everything was shown by the hazy sun subtly, gently, not brashly or harshly, just simply. And mostly, I fell in love with sunset. Sunsets there are pure magic. There's always a few clouds that turn the brightest pinks and oranges and then the softest most gorgeous dusty rose color just as the sun sinks. And the sunsets make everything glow. Especially the castle though. The castle catches all the light it's given and reflects it so perfectly. It's hard to even describe, so luckily I captured it one day with my camera.

Isn't it just perfect? The way the light softens and bounces of the castle?

It's like the soft perfect ending of a fairy tale.

Somehow Disney has paid off the sun to make their park look perfect constantly. But especially at sunset I think so then you remember the perfection and glow of happiness you saw during the day. Just look how beautiful the Matterhorn and Tea Cups look! This day was gorgeous and simply breathtaking. They are bittersweet to look at and just make me want to go back so bad I can barely stand staying home one more second.

That may be my favorite picture I took at Disneyland.

Except for the lady's head in the corner.... :/

I was driving home a week or two ago and the light was just like the glowing perfect Anaheim sunsets. It was brilliant and beautiful and I cried I was so moved. (I cry easy if you never noticed.) It made me want to run, fly, skip, drive, ride, anything to get back to Disneyland as quickly as possible to see the beauty again in the place that in belongs in my memory.

I hope the light inside me and the light of my life is much like the light of Anaheim. Soft, glowing, forgiving of faults, yet illuminating of truth, and ending in brilliant beauty and perfect peace.

30DC Day 18

Plans/Dreams/Goals you have:

Plans:

Get back to Disneyland sometime in May. If that doesn't work out,then this fall. (I refuse to go when it's busy.)

Figure out my next step.

Dreams:

I'd love to go on America's Next Top Model.

I want to be famous. Not just to be famous, but to help other people and be an inspiration and an example. It's kinda dumb, but it's true.

Goals:

Get out of debt. Car debt, credit card, etc.

30DC Day 14

A picture of something you ate:

I forgot to take a picture and forgot to post this day.

I think I had a tuna fish sandwich with Dill Pickle hunks in it.

But I'm not sure. But that's something I would eat.

Yup.

30DC Day 17

Someone you would like to switch lives with for one day and why:

Oh there are SO many people I'd like to switch lives with for one day and for so many reasons. But one comes to mind the quickest.

Danielle Deleasa.

She's married to Kevin Jonas in reality and it would be interesting to see what that would be like. But I'd like to still have my body. I'm not very fond of her looks.